We welcomed little Sadie into our family. What a sweet little miracle. See, after doing chemo and radiation, the doctors told me there would be a 40 to 60 percent chance that I might not be able to get pregnant. I waited the recommended 2 years after finishing all treatments before considering anything. I couldn't believe it when only a month later found out I was pregnant. And then at 20 weeks saw it was a little girl!! YAY!Later I realized that Heavenly Father was blessing me with the knowledge of a little girl to get me through all my cancer stuff. I thought about Sadie when I was ready to give up and couldn't take anymore. I even did 2 extra chemotherapy treatments of a different drug to avoid the shorter treatment of a drug that is more damaging to the ovaries.
It was all worth it for this sweet little princess.
I remember when we first told the boys that we were going to have a baby Ethan said, "Oh a little sister, in a pink room!!" Now, this was BEFORE we knew for sure if it was a girl. Ethan had no question in his mind that he was going to have a little sister. I remember coming home from the ultrasound and telling the boys.."Well, we just found out we're having a girl!!" They both looked at me and said, "Mom, we already knew." Spencer and Ethan are such great brothers!!
And I don't care what anyone tells you...A Dad changes when he has a little girl. I have never seen such a sweet, sensitive side of Matt until he held Sadie in his arms for the first time. He was always really great with the boys and sweet and tender with them, but it was just different with Sadie. I think she had Daddy wrapped around her little finger from day one! Ok, I KNOW she did!
Sadie was blessed on New Year's Day in 2006. I cut the train off my wedding dress and my Mom made her the most beautiful blessing dress...
Sadie did her first cheerleading kick. Really, she just hated how the grass poked at her legs. :)
She's like her mamma....she loves food... 
Yes, she LOVED her pink frosting on her first birthday cake!!
Finally enough hair for pigtails.....barely.
Ahhh....one of the three Easter dresses..... 
So this is one of my favorites. Sadie LOVES to accessorize...
And just like that she is TWO! 
Last year's Christmas dress.....so pretty!
Matching shirts with Mommy. March 2008.
2008 Easter dress....Sadie still begs me to wear her "big pink dress".
Sadie had a Tinkerbell party...of course! I mentioned in a previous post that Sadie thinks she is the real Tinkerbell. It's true. She still see's Tink and says, "Oh, look! It's me! Tinkerbell!"
We gave her a card that has Tink on the front and when you open it, it plays music. Yeah, she carries it with her everywhere!
Sadie practiced singing happy birthday to herself all day long. I got some of it on video, so I'll have to include that in a later post. It's priceless.
I was so proud of Ethan and Spencer on Sadie's birthday. They both got her birthday presents on their own. Spencer spent his own money and got her a sweet doll toy. And Ethan knew Sadie wanted one of his cool toys, so he wrapped it up for her. Sadie is really lucky to have such great brothers to look out for her.
I don't know how I got to be so lucky to be Sadie's mom, but I won't complain. While sometimes she's a little dramatic and emotional....(hmmm wonder where she gets that?) She makes me smile everyday. I love to listen to her sing songs and tell me the most interesting things. I love how she calls people on her play cell phone and insists that I talk to them as well.
I'm trying to soak up every minute of her sweetness because I know the moments turn into days and then weeks and years. I just have to remember that when she has dumped an entire cup of water all over the floor, right after she crumples bread into the carpet, right after she squirts water all over the house...(she takes her spray bottle everywhere) and then after each incident demands a new outfit because she got wet. (sigh)
Happy 3rd Birthday Sadie bug!
I hope by capturing these tender, sacred moments, I can help parents make the grieving process a little easier. It's the very, very, least I can do....This season Spencer is becoming quite the soccer player. He usually plays defender or midfield, but this particular week he got to play forward. And he did a great job!!!
Check out this awesome kick!!!
Spencer is not afraid to get in there and attack the ball. This is something he's really improved on over the last few years.
Look at this cool play!! Go Spencer!!
And just when I thought he'd seen his best game...it got even better. He got right in front of the goal and worked up a HUGE kick...and....
Yes, he did really LOVE this game!!!
Sadie's proud Halloween moment this year was helping pass out candy. (after an hour of trick or treating with the boys) After the doorbell rang she would RUN to the door, open it and say VERY loudly and cheerfully, "Oh HI!!!!" We passed out the candy, and then "BYE!! Happy Howoween!!"
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